W. A. S. P. - Still Not Black Enough (1995) ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Blackie Lawless - Lead and Background Vocals, Lead, Rhythm and Acoustic Guitars, Bass, Electric Sitar, Piano, Organ, Synthesizer Bob Kulick - Lead Guitars Frankie Banali - Drums Stet Howland - Additional Percussion on "Scared To Death". Mark Josephson - Electric Violin. Tracey Whitney, K. C. Calloway - Background Vocals. Produced by Blackie Lawless. Engineered and Mixed by Mikey Davis. Production Manager: Russel "The Punch Monster" Wallace. Assistant Engineers: Chris Hashem and Mark Humphries. Mastered by Andy Van Dette at Master Disk. Album Design by Kosh. Layout by Hugh Gilmour, Castle Communications PLC. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ W. A. S. P. fans are unique in the sense that they appear to be, for whatever reason, willing to allow me to take them on a life long journey. You are interested in taking a walk through my mind on a regular basis, as I am with you, and you better believe that I am keenly aware that this very special relationship exists. Although I do not consider this a "conceptual" record, there are some common threads that run throughout the piece. This record picks up where the "Crimson Idol" left off. I had stated on numerous occasions that the "Crimson Idol" had taken me on a bizarre journey, one that I wasn't sure I wanted to repeat any time soon. But the journey goes on. Not one of a suicidal icon, but of myself, and when I look back on that record I see far more similarities between Jonathan and myself than I would have ever allowed myself to believe at the time I wrote it. Naive as it may sound, it's true. I was hiding behind Jonathan, because I didn't want to admit it to myself, much less the rest of the world. When I finished "Crimson" I was crazy as a "shit house rat". I hid it pretty well from everyone, but the experience of making that record all but put me away, indefinitely! Dealing with the demons of one's past is not always a pleasant thing to contend with. It wasn't until the tour was over, and I could see that night after night, not only at the shows, but even more so afterwards when I would talk to many of you and you would go into detail how that record not only affected your life but was your life. I realized that I was in the same boat with many of you, and when the tour was over, I came back to L.A. I was standing on the balcony of my hotel room. It was about 3 a.m., and I swear, it was like every face and every conversation I had from that tour where people had poured their hearts out to me came crashing down on me. It was like I was completely surrounded and all the voices crying out at me all at once. I stood there and cried and screamed at the top of my lungs, something I had not done since my mother died 15 years ago. I felt like an animal in a trap, wailing from his agony (I later realized that's exactly what I was) with no way to get out. I don't remember much after that. Born out of that experience was new insight into myself. As the song "I Can't" (recorded for these new sessions) states, "I'm One Bizarre Motherfucker". I am truly the strangest person I know (if you don't believe me, just ask anyone who knows me well). On one hand, I have this very gentle nature, which enables me to write song like "Breathe", "Forever Free" and things like that, but... there's another side of me. Angry, pissed off, but moreover than that, extremely dark and moody and as black as the ace of spades. I used to tell people when they asked "How did you get the name Blackie?", it was because of my hair, but looking back, I think I chose it because it best describes the dominant side of me. Trying to be inside me (or around me) is sometimes very tough (ask above mentioned people) 'cause I ain't no day at the beach! I am a very "angry songwriter", which is to say, I write best when I'm angry about something (or someone: see "Chainsaw Charlie", "Ballcrusher", etc.) and out of the aforementioned experience comes "Still Not Black Enough", etc. The nightmares of a lifetime have surfaced in the last few years and though I don't always like what I see, this is how I deal with it. What the fuck makes me tick? I don't know. I'm still searching. B.L. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Track Listing 1) Still Not Black Enough (Lawless) 4:02 2) Skinwalker (Lawless) 4:00 - Re-issue bonus track 3) Somebody To Love 2:50 4) Black Forever (Lawless) 3:17 5) Scared To Death (Lawless) 5:03 6) Goodbye America (Lawless) 4:47 7) Keep Holding On (Lawless) 4:04 8) Rock And Roll To Death (Lawless) 3:45 9) Breathe (Lawless) 3:44 10) I Can't (Lawless) 3:07 11) No Way Out Of Here (Lawless) 3:39 12) One Tribe (Lawless) 4:59 - Re-issue bonus track 13) Tie Your Mother Down (Brian May) 3:39 - Re-issue bonus track 14) Whole Lotta Rosie (Bon Scott, Malcom Young, Angus Young) 4:00 - Re-issue bonus track ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 1) Still Not Black Enough (Lawless) 4:02 Paint a shadow on my heart In shades of ebony Paint the sun out of the sky That rains over me Chorus: Black sun rain on me I need one, black sun Rain on me, rain on me Chorus Tie me to my blackness there Where I'm ever free Taken to the dark edges of My wicked memories Black sun rain on me I need one, black sun Rain on me, rain on me Paint my soul in indigo, and ebony for me No colour seen in my eyes, none in my eyes I'm naked in my misery Emotions stripped to bone I see inside the heart of me I'm still not black enough for me No colour in the heart of me No colour run in my veins I hold the black to my breast It bleeds over me I can't go on, till I get off For me it's still not black enough With darkness gone, my fear is seen My fear is real, my fear is me Chorus (2) ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 2) Skinwalker (Lawless) 4:00 - Re-issue bonus track Show me once more, I cannot hide Cause I am here now but I'm lost inside Voices I hear but cannot see Cause I will never be free No good, darkened through I walk this line skin walk my darkness, skin me alive Two in me we can see who we are Take me and rape me alone in the dark Two inside there's a scream in my ear Skin walk my head ain't no way out of here Is there no corner where I can hide? To suffer in the silence of my mind Two in me we can see who we are In my dark cranium No good, darkened through I walk this line skin walk my darkness, skin me alive Two in me we can see who we are Take me and rape me alone in the dark Two inside there's a scream in my ear Skin walk my head ain't no way out of here Oh try to scream but I can't speak Silent tongue of deceit Oh the torture don't stop My head's chained to the rock Can you help me? When I awake dreams have closed my eyes Dancing shadows, black in my mind It crawls my skin where I cannot see Will I ever be free? Two in me we can see who we are Take me and rape me alone in the dark Two inside there's a scream in my ear Skin walk my head ain't no way out of here ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 3) Somebody To Love 2:50 When the truth is found to be lies You know the joy within you dies Don't you want somebody to love Don't you need somebody to love Wouldn't you love somebody to love You better find somebody to love When the dawn is rose they are dead Yes, and you're mine (you're mine), you're so full of red Don't you want somebody to love Don't you need somebody to love Wouldn't you love somebody to love You better find somebody to love Your eyes, I say your eyes may look like his Yeah, but in your head, baby, I'm afraid you don't know Where it is, no Don't you want somebody to love Don't you need somebody to love Wouldn't you love somebody to love You better find somebody to love Tears are running Running along down your breast And your friends, baby, They treat you like a guest Don't you want somebody to love Don't you need somebody to love Wouldn't you love somebody to love You better find somebody to love ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 4) Black Forever (Lawless) 3:17 There's red in my head But I don't want it The blues were swarming There in my soul Shadows over me and The only colour I can paint in my soul I want black and don't fade away I want it black forever Inside of me, all I wanna see's The colours in my head I'm black, the only way And make it black forever Go inside and go inside and Never come back out again Don't colourize me 'Cause I don't want it The ravens taken over my soul The only thing I want is The only way I wanna go I want black and don't fade away I want it black forever Inside of me, all I wanna see's The colours in my head I'm black, the only way And make it black forever Go inside and go inside and Never come back out again The reds were my head, the blues were my soul Swirl in my mind, never let go Blind my eyes, with a cold embrace I'll lay my veil all across my face Everyone I used to know Sees me strange, sees me bold Everything I used to hold Will fade away my soul No confessions, and no regrets I'll paint the black all across my chest Gimme darkness, and gimme rest Gimme blackness, or gimme death I want black and don't fade away I want it black forever Inside of me, all I wanna see's The colours in my head I'm black, the only way And make it black forever Go inside and go inside and Never come back out again ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 5) Scared To Death (Lawless) 5:03 Grit your teeth, and listen for the gun Get in the runners block and kneel And run the human race that decadent decathlon And let the games begin for real Stop scaring me - it's bedlam in paradise Stop I can't see - nowhere I can hide Scared to run; this monstrous marathon of fear I run the races with a dark horse to win Across a finish line of fear I swim a sea of skin, afraid to drown in flesh X-generations revolutions here Scared to have sex - I don't wanna die Scared I'll be next - I'm scared for my life Dying to live, but there ain't no way Outta here alive - all we're all scared there's Nowhere to run - I'm scared to death Nowhere to hide - scared I'll be next Oh - stop, stop, stop, stop Nowhere to run - I'm scared to death Nowhere to hide - scared I'll be next Oh - stop, stop, stop, stop Am I a prisoner of the universe? Is destiny fixed among the stars? Should I cry or laugh? All I know is that The best time to laugh is anytime you can Life's one big party - thrown here by god We all get invitations - if we want them or not It's all truth or dare and nothing is fair, no, no ,no We're all scared there's Nowhere to run - I'm scared to death Nowhere to hide - scared I'll be next Oh - stop, stop, stop, stop Nowhere to run - I'm scared to death Nowhere to hide - scared I'll be next Oh - stop, stop, stop, stop Oh, it's the decade of fear No way out of here, no, no, no No, no, no - no, no, no - no, no, no Oh scream in my ears Oh stop what I hear, no, no, no No, no, no - no, no, no - no, no, no Nowhere to run - I'm scared to death Nowhere to hide - scared I'll be next Oh Nowhere to run - I'm scared to death Nowhere to hide - scared I'll be next Oh ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 6) Goodbye America (Lawless) 4:47 (Spoken): I'm politically incorrect and damn proud of it I love my country ... but I'm scared to death of its government... Ya believe what you read 'cause it's all that we give ya Coz all of history is written by winners I'm engaged in a frenzy of mass self-destruction I feed upon your famine to fuel my corruption I'm wholesaling hatred and international incest To carnivorous hyenas in a global theft feast I've mastered the arts of death and foreign nations genocide And those who turn on me commit national suicide I'm the question of the global dream And I rule a declining nation I sit and watch all the violent screams From the throne of your desperation I killed them all and I stole their land Enslaved the blacks and slaughtered the red man In god we trusted and I gave birth To would be kings to rule the earth Chorus: Breakdown goodbye America So long the music's died Freedom's last heroes wasted I made you, I'll break you Breakdown goodbye America It's all gone, kiss it goodbye There on bloody bended knees where My nation died I have more pigs than I have tits to feed I embrace the world's phony leaders And hold the sucklings to my breast And I'll fool ya all as I'd feed ya I'll prop ya up, then strike ya down And lick your blood up from your ground Humpty-fuckin'-dumpty My empire's falling down Chorus (2) ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 7) Keep Holding On (Lawless) 4:04 Your sad eyes, never told me No paradise, here for the lonely But I hold on, half a heart here in my hands Been so long, would you know me Who's holding you, who's gonna hold me If you want me, then I'll be your man And I keep holding on Holding on when you come back to me And I keep holing on Holding on till you run to me Can you take me to heaven Show me the way, 'cause I'm no angel I am lost and Can I hold you one more time I guess me holding you was holding you down Will I have your memory Or will your memory have me I don't know, only time Knows if I'll ever know peace of mind Only time knows if you're mine, knows you're mine And I keep holding on Holding on when you come back to me And I keep holing on Holding on till you run to me All I can hold is a shadow of a heart that's gone And left me shattered I'm lost and Can I hold you one more time I guess me holding you Was holding you down I guess me holding you Was holding you down I guess me holding you Was holding you down ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 8) Rock And Roll To Death (Lawless) 3:45 Thunder pounding my brains in A six string rock and roll razor Nobody gonna save me The whole world drives me crazy I hate work, I hate school I got a case of the rock's dead blues Friday night I'll be raging Midnight gonna be wasted Friday I'm raising Hell, I gotta be wasted Time to party, raise a glass Tell everybody to kiss my ass Let me go - dead or rock, dead or rock, Dead or rock, dead or rock If rock and roll dies I'll take my last breath Rock and roll to death Dead or rock, dead or rock, dead or rock, Pass the bullets please, dead or rock Find me a grave, help me dig it If rock's dead then bury me with it Dead or rock, dead or rock, dead or rock Pass the bullets please, dead or rock To death do us part to my last breath Give me rock or gimme death Dead or rock, dead or rock (2) If rock and roll dies I'll take my last breath Rock and roll to death ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 9) Breathe (Lawless) 3:44 You don't have to hear my heart beat All you need is to look into my eyes And tell me, I'm the one your heart needs I'm the only one you run to in the night Oh - let me, burn the words forever mine Across your heart, across your mind Take your hands and feel my heart beat Come and let me feel it in your eyes All you have to do is touch me Oh - and lay your flame across my fire Oh - let me spread your wings and come inside And take your heart and make you mine Chorus: Come and lay down your heart on me All that I wanna feel is Breathe in me Lay down your heart on me Feel you inside of me Breathe on me Come and take me on, take me down Oh, take me all, all the way There's only one way There's only one thing I need, oh I need Take me way down Come and lay down on me Chorus ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 10) I Can't (Lawless) 3:07 I can't laugh I can't cry I can't see inside of me Don't know the reason why I ain't straight And I ain't high I'm the ugly in between Can't live and I can't die I wanna scream And I can't win My life's a living soundtrack For a human horror film I can't feel And I can't love My mama never showed me how I never was enough I can't laugh And I can't smile I'll sacrifice my aged elders To show me how to die I can't love And I can't feel And my mother never loved me Deep down she hated me I can't fuck I can't feel I am one bizarre motherfucker What the fuck's inside of me I'll kill the beast So to free my soul And smash the mirrors That won't let me go Oh, if there's a smile that ya see It's only the clockwork orange that's in me I curse the darkness impassioned plea And tear the heart out and watch me bleed I'll sacrifice my blood for free To satisfy the vengeance that's in me And bury the mirror I can't laugh I can't cry I can't see inside of me Don't know the reason why ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 11) No Way Out Of Here (Lawless) 3:39 I went away for whole lot of days And I stripped the soul right outlaw me Lead away in a crimson haze The red was rain over me There ain't no way outta here I try to scream, I can't even speak Why am I the only one I can't get out and I can't go on There were faces there in the dark and In me I could not see The mirror cracked in a million pieces And so did I 'cause Johnny's me There ain't no way outta here I try to scream, I can't even speak Why am I the only one I can't get out and I can't go on There ain't no way outta here Forever red and I'm never free Climb the walls and I can't hold on I can't go back and I can't go on Oh, I'll fade forever black away I'll give all my tomorrows for just one good today I'm numb to feel, don't know what's real The ghost is killing me Chorus 1: There ain't no way outta here I try to scream, I can't even speak Why am I the only one I can't get out and I can't go on Chorus 2: There ain't no way outta here Forever red and I'm never free Climb the walls and I can't hold on I can't go back and I can't go on Chorus 1 & 2 ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 12) One Tribe (Lawless) 4:59 - Re-issue bonus track Gimme peace, gimme hope Gimme love, love Just one life to be free Just one world live in peace One love, love Cause in a sea, feed my soul Save one world, save us all One love, love Lift my hands, raise my heart I touch the sky, the face of God Rain all your love down on us all Show me peace, show me love I'll still see only one One love, love Rain you love down on me Fill my soul, set me free Give me love, love ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 13) Tie Your Mother Down (Brian May) 3:39 - Re-issue bonus track (from Queen "A Day At The Races" (1976)) Get your party gown Get your pigtail down Get your heart beatin' baby Got my timin' right Got my act all tight It's gotta be tonight my little Schoolbabe Your momma says you don't And your Daddy says you won't And I'm boilin' up inside Ain't no way I'm gonna lose out this time Tie your Mother down Tie your Mother down Lock your Daddy out of doors I don't need him nosing around Tie your Mother down Tie your Mother down Give me all your love tonight You're such a dirty louse Go get outta my house That's all I ever get from your Family ties, in fact I don't think I ever heard A single little civil word from those guys But you know I don't give a light I'm gonna make out all right I've got a sweetheart hand To put a stop to all that Grousin' an' snipin' Tie your Mother down Tie your Mother down Take your little brother swimmin' With a brick (that's all right) Tie your Mother down, Tie your Mother down Or you ain't no friend of mine Your momma and your Daddy gonna Plague me til I die Why can't they understand I'm just a Peace lovin' guy Tie your Mother down Tie your Mother down ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 14) Whole Lotta Rosie (Bon Scott, Malcom Young, Angus Young) 4:00 - Re-issue bonus track (from AC/DC "Let There Be Rock" (1977)) Wanna tell you a story Bout a woman I know When it comes to lovin' Oh, she steals the show Ain't exactly pretty Bitch ain't exaclty small 14-39-56 You can say she's got it all Never met a woman Never met a woman like you Doin' all the things Doin' all the things you do Ain't no fairy story Ain't no skin and bone But you give it all you got Weighin' in at nineteen stone You're a whole lot of woman A whole lot of woman Whole lotta Rosie You're a whole lotta woman Oh honey you can do it Do it to me all night long Only one that turns Only one that turns me on All through the night-time All around the clock Too much advising Don'tcha never stop She's a whole lot of woman A whole lot of woman Whole lotta Rosie You're a whole lotta woman ------------------------------------------------------------------------