Anesthesia - The State Of Being Unable To Feel Pain (1997) + ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Schrubach - Lead Vocals Hendrik Schott - Lead, Rhythm and Acoustic Guitars Andreas Mier - Lead and Rhythm Guitars Jan Rubach - Bass, Backing Vocals Thomas Nack - Drums, Percussion, Backing Vocals Produced by Jan Rubach. Co-Produced by Yenz "Rodgrod med flode" Voight Leonhardt. Mixed by Tommy Hansen with Rubach and Voight Leonhardt at Jailhouse Studio. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Track Listing 1) Welcome To The Church Of The Numb (Anesthesia) 1:01 2) My Age (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Yenz Voight Leonhardt) 5:26 3) Cancer (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 5:51 4) Triptychon (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 5:17 5) Winter (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 5:13 6) Heroes Of Research (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 5:25 7) Emperor Time (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 7:22 8) I. L. O. I. (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 3:51 9) The Prophet Song (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 4:54 10) Caligula's Dance (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 4:29 11) Atrocious Silence (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 8:59 12) Egomania (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 6:01 13) Habits (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 4:08 ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 1) Welcome To The Church Of The Numb (Anesthesia) 1:01 Instrumental ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 2) My Age (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Yenz Voight Leonhardt) 5:26 In this somber dynasty ... of fatality I can't find no absolution Your reasons to believe, damn alien Intravenous solution Heavier ... than my leaded head These needle-thin Damocles-swords Incestuous thoughts ... driving me mad I lean against the cosmic gun Chorus: I shackled by my needs I need more - I'm a hero in rage Each gram so heavy, the black hole increases Leave me alone with my age Arms into arms Shoot up the void into the brain Dark rainbow charms I crossed the point of no return Mainline I slammed the door on conformity Slow death But I found the truth burning ... my veins Repeat chorus Restless Minutes turn to days, eternity folds on itself I writhe in spastic torment My urge dictates ... my deliverance The sirens of the syringe ... shall reign ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 3) Cancer (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 5:51 Feeding in the shadows Of your mother's womb Spawn by eerie starlight Under a bloody moon Behind your bedroom door You're gonna hurt much more Just like a thousand swords You used to be such a believer Why you'd like to recall On your death bed you'll find the answer Born under the sign of the cancer Kabbalas and tarots ... and astrology Unholy constellation Trail of your broken dreams As it grows in you, you slowly winter You were so full of life, now the panic increases Artificial terror ... in vegetation Better end it now ... and have my redemption ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 4) Tryptychon (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 5:17 In the garden of Eden ... by the well of life The father wielded his grace and merciful light He created the first man ... and his loving bride The guard as sentinels ... in obedience Till the end of time There was no pain, no murder No torment, no hate But evil was watching And staged the fall from grace With terrible anger God shut the pearly gate And cast out ... the infidels with providence ... and godly rage Convulsing bodies in the garden of delight Love and lust getting stronger by the hour To the valley of peace they crossed the mountain of war No hate no death, but the quest for the holy tower With sexual rites ... closed magical ring The garden hung with human flesh and perfumed flowers And they flew forever on an angel's golden wing And they drank the light and defied all evil powers Crystal waters - and flowers of love Shaped out of - bones and dust The beast is down below And God in the skies above But who created the garden of lust All the sinners fall down to their knees and pray As the corpse-fed birds spread its wings on your face It's too late no route to escape You believed in war and sin and earthly wars Pay! The delight is darkened by a million flies Doom comes down and the wounded creature cries Claws in your face, try to get to your brain We're doomed to live in pain in a hellbound cacophony ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 5) Winter (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 5:13 Once again I leave my shell ... to meet and fear the sea An ocean of frozen waves ... like a world of crumbled sheets Nature's beauty, moving me ... winter makes me smile But mountain walls keep closing in and I'm - snow-blind Well, you know I have this secret place And if I ... sit very still My gaze will wander through these walls To a world untouched and clean Majestic pines in their coats of snow Reaching out to me Sometimes I get so very cold But out here I'm free White Here they come, try to shatter the ice White Teeth chatter as they sweet talk with lies White I don't want their hands on me Please leave me be... And when I'm down I'm holding my breath I shine my pretty rocket ... it's my favorite thing And then I feel good, angels cut my wings And strap my little jacket ... and the journey begins The whitecoats say we're going fine Working on my shell But I don't like the way they sniff around In my winter cell Well, I don't know why they want me here But I'm sure I've been here quite a while On cloudless a days I try recall But all I see is ice So I turn my gaze back to the wall On a snowclad mountain slope I swear I saw a crimson trail Reminding me of you ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 6) Heroes Of Research (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 5:25 Hey! Tell me, Mr. Preacher My devoted faith healer About my life, my luck, my future And about the love of God So preach the word man of the church To a hero of research I'm running low on life blood Tell me why we live to suffer Live to suffer Know who you are Know where you're comin' from I don't even know what I'm on And I'm numb What have I done? Am I the only one My life has just begun And I'm numb I'm not strong enough to live Feels like I'm fading in the desert sun I'm no strong enough to die I am bleeding, but it's never enough Free my soul - carrion crow Take me - home, yeah! So I turn to you, Mr. Preacher For your insight and wisdom I traveled far in darker regions And now my heart is sinking fast You see a pact was signed Sealed in blood With the heroes of research My bones need rest I'm not strong enough to live I'll be bleeding 'til my penance is done I'm not strong enough to live See me bleaching in the desert sun Save me! I'm not strong enough to die See me turning into desert lust I'm not strong enough to die Hear me pleading to become undone I played with life I gambled with death I took creation into my own hands To all you fools, who dare to play this game If you wanna be a hero... There's a price you gotta pay... ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 7) Emperor Time (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 7:22 If Godfather ... created everything Why did he choose eternity Gave us the past and memories Without a hope of mortality You soothe our pain to bring us suffering While our silent waters flow Tomorrow fading into yesterday Time ... how far must we go? Reign a precision, a cruel disposition And no walls to smash my fist against Your surreal dimension of real time suppression Protect the empyreal clock Mother Earth, I'm your prodigal son Second by second - killing me like guns for hire Minute religion, no atheism could clock Oh time, running out and I'm so tired Oh, time He's a thief Never on our side Bereaving me Strung up ... from your hands like puppets What did we do Since you gotta put us through Time... ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 8) I. L. O. I. (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 3:51 So there you are, crusader, born leader Live by the sword, need no sympathy But your career on exploration You take them in and spit them out Move swift and cool with no emotion Making love like an armoured car Listen to the dark, the candle burnt out Too much too soon, the pump of your heart Spirits reaching out for communication Well, you better relax, cause it's time to go You stagger through the thorns onto the bridge across Imaginary limits - of imagination Now, crusader, time to rise and shine Feel damn hung-over, what did we do last night? You trained yourself, your heart's an empty shell You're a real conquistador All that's really left ... is mad intelligence And the appetite of a predator And these nightly dreams seem so real You wonder 'bout the bruises on your skin Twisted faces ... leading you on Like a cabinet of players from the past There's just one bridge ... you can never burn Behold the stream we all might crossed ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 9) The Prophet Song (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 4:54 And after a while we turned away Braved the seas of a stranger land Mystic chains beckoning We braced ourselves and closed the ring, yeah Shallow streams we left behind Tinsel dreams only make you blind River runs within your soul Close your eyes and down we go, yeah If that's your view on humanity I'm getting right off this train It's too crazy, just too derailed Driving me insane Come now children follow me To ancient shores and forgotten kings Our history of ignorance All written down in blood and tears, yeah Systems come, systems go There are those who see And those who'll never know Well, I've got the guts I've got the will Children of tomorrow Come follow me Now! ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 10) Caligula's Dance (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 4:29 Mother - you sweet scheming bitch Leave us alone to conspire Victorious - in our Britannia campaign We're throwing a feast to the... Godhead - and the incubus We're both quite amused Glorious - how slaves and consuls alike Dance for Caligula Visions of the orient Opened our eyes, the tears that we cried No one knows the pain of a modern god We're dancing on skeletons - tonight All hail! Tibirius - your blood still sticking to the throne Our throne A toast dear father Gajus germanicus Poisoned by the... Glorious colours spinning 'round and 'round Martial eagle Burning your town Betrayal in the hall Hear them shout: Death to the tyrant! Hear them shout: Death to the tyrant! Betrayal... Narcissism is a nemesis crime (4) ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 11) Atrocious Silence (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 8:59 Millions of faces, millions of souls Billions of wishes kept in their embryos No, isn't the real ... dream destroyer Our individuality ... paranoia? And millions are dreamin' ... a trillion tales untold Centillon afflictions ... while silence is - screamin' Just loud enough ... to make you wanna wake up Insanity's reaping, yeah yeah We've got command of speech ... but decline to use it Obsessed by teaching ... but inclined to refuse it We've got all the answers ... here and teach ourselves questions Vive verca would be sane, but it's too damn elusive Somewhere here deep inside ... behind the walls of fear Might be there's still something ... that's call for tears We're growing older, ooh the call is growing colder Our tracks losing potency with the years The murder ... without guns Mass persecution ... mania runs Constant fear of denunciation It's ... a subhuman condition A community ... without terror - terror It's a fatal human error Suppression of tongues - There's the horror Here stands the cradle of violence Atrocious silence Ain't it strange, we don't realize It's life itself our life style denies The mind's exposed and madness the price Our pitches are cities and streets in decline Are there still millions of heavens and skies Where expectation and illusion thrives? My brain's an electric eye Communication the only pesticide In the swallow world, we hide our pain We swallow the hurt, corroding the brain The social honour ... won't be stained As we're going introversive insane Everyday - everyday - it's the same old song - same old song Everybody's talking but holding their tongues Millions of souls in perdition choir It's time to throw your fear on the fire ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 12) Egomania (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 6:01 Come on now... I will never play my part Hey! I got a mean and angry heart I know my way: walk on down Take the blows as they ... fucking come Yeah! Media crime ... a TV lies Sleep your life, sleep your life away Look at you, you live to consume Throw it all, throw it all away It's a rat race, can you take the pace Hide your face, hide yourself away Don't let 'em swallow your soul Don't let 'em make you grow old Turn to stone - you're Egomania They keep you high on the bottom line Doctor Doom and Nosferatu Don't have a clue, head on out today They drain your head, fill it with Novocaine Kick the monkey - Kill the monkey Kick the monkey today You gotta face the day You gotta walk your trail You gotta share the pain In the driving rain Don't let 'em swallow your soul... Turn to stone - you're Egomania You're the law You're all jaws - Egomania Keep you high on the bottom line - Egomania TV lies, major crime Yeah Uh ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 13) Habits (Anesthesia / Anesthesia, Leonhardt) 4:08 Sitting on a neutron bomb I'm the bastard son of concrete and neon Living out beyond the law, irregularity my kingdom And my hate ... fuels my soul My hate ... plates my skull And I'm heading for the sun Habits, I'm the one Am I self-destruct? Like the rest of this world Habits! I'm naked as life Dead centre I see myself ... as the twin-headed god I really am I'm the piece of you I'm the eye of the hurricane On a never-ending hunt for substance Meet me on the astral plane to celebrate my free existence And my hate ... fuels my soul And my hate ... plates my skull My hate ... boils my blood My hate - here comes the flood And I'm heading for the sun Habits, I'm the one Am I self-destruct? Like the rest of this world And I'm closer to the sun Rituals wind me up Am I self-destruct? Like the rest of this world Habits! (2) ------------------------------------------------------------------------